Scribblings
"A Conversation" -Amie LeeKing
the changes collide,
the feelings subside,
the distances grow further,
names forgotten and memories fade
I can't be what you want me to be, she said.
too stubborn to let go,
too scared to be vulnerable,
too selfish to try and understand.
stop thinking like that, she said.
You shouldn't think that.
that's not what I am doing, she said.
no, no, no ... I like you...
I like you too much...
oh now you are gonna go away, she said.
no, I am not going anywhere, I said.
I don't want to leave you
I love you, she said.
you mean so much to me, she said.
I don't want to hold you back, I said.
as silence comes over us
and my heart fills up with tears
as I question her sincerity.
you are the only thing I have going on here, she said.
why are we even talking about this, she said.
it shouldn't be like this
cos I don't want it to be like,
I have a boyfriend...
and this means this
and this means that
no, no ... we should just be friends, she said.
but I am not a boy, I said.